Today was yet another good day as far as symptoms were concerned. I took an Aleve on Sunday, and the only medicine I've had since then was an Excedrin this afternoon. Yippy! The Excedrin actually caused a phenomena to occur - it gave me an energy rush, full of life and vitality. I celebrated with a happy. :-3 Sadly, I am having a hard time remembering when I last felt this good without the help of external influenced. It was probably more than a month ago. Sustained, joyous, bouncing excitement filled to the brim with life. Why have I let myself go so long without this? How can I continue to get my happy back?
It could be that every single class I'm in had something (or more than one thing...) due this week, and I'm chipping my way through all of them at a steady pace, allowing myself to relax a little bit more. It could be that the break in the symptoms is finally getting to me and this is my body's way of rejoicing - outbursts of life.
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| Kuzco from The Emperor's New Groove (aka my favorite movie of all time) |
Spring of 2010, I was interning and had to be at the internship by 7am. One morning, my car wouldn't start. Begrudgingly, I drove the family minivan, all the while worried sick that my car was terribly broken. I got to work on time, but by 8:30, my mentor looked at me and said "Melissa, go home. I don't know what's really wrong with you, but you need to go home and get your happy back. I don't like mad Melissa."
Why did she tell us a story about her car...?
Sometimes, life gets to the point where the most important thing you can do with your time is take care of yourself. I know, it sounds selfish, and some would say it's a waste of time, but I speak from experience; nothing works right when you don't have your groove. When you're heart is in the right place, everything else will follow suit. An infectious disease specialist once told me it's often mind over matter when it comes to the quality of your life with Lyme's. Staying positive, using good posture, smiling, and living normally are absolutely fundamental to perseverance. It is so easy to let yourself fall into despair when you ache - pain and misery are identical twins.
Thankfully, so are Wholesomeness and Joy.
All my Love,
~Melissa
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